I've 'Popped'!

My belly that is! Actually it happened last week, my 12 week mark. I noticed the day after my doctors appointment that it felt a little strange, my pants weren't fitting as well, etc. Then as the days went by I realized it wasn't just bloating anymore! My baby is growing! :)

They say that your uterus becomes too big to fit inside your hip bones anymore, so it starts moving up and out. So I guess thats what happend! Here's a few pics for comparison!

I was around 7-8 weeks here...my stupid cameras
date wasn't set right so I'm not sure!

And here I am last week at 12, nearly 13!

So anywho, def got a belly out there now! It feels strange. I still look more fat then pregnant, so I will be happy when that stage is over! Though it is fun to see a difference now! WE know its not fat! Hehe. I am doing okay in my pants with the hair band, although I like my maternity pants (thats what I have on in the last pic) better. But only in fit, I'm not crazy about the looks.

Still haven't felt my baby move yet, I can't wait for that. I hope its soon! Although I'm also kind of worried about it because then you have to start worrying about it. Like, oh, it hasn't moved since -- and then you wonder why, is it okay, sleeping, what? Anyway, hopefully I'll be able to tell myself to cut it out and just enjoy it and trust God.

So! I don't remember if I mentioned it but we cleaned out the nursery a few weeks ago. One Saturday we just got in there and cleaned it out and threw a bunch of stuff away and got it and the room that we moved a lot of the stuff from there into, all organized! We have 3 extra rooms, but none of them are very big, and the nursery is the smallest. The other room is a guest bedroom and then we have the workout room which is now also the office since we moved the desk and computer in there. As well as a bookshelf! I'm so glad it all fit!

Here is the nursery, lots of work to be done! But at least it is cleaned out. This is like the only room that was a reasonable color when we moved in, so we didn't paint it. But I have plans on doing that soon! More on that in a minute.

This is my 'baby corner' hehe, a few things I have gotten
from people for 'baby Mickle'. Those other things are air mattresses
that need to go back to my mom and dads!

So its not a very big room, but we think big enough for a crib, glider, and some sort of changing table. Lee and I are thinking of buying an old desk or dresser and refinishing it, instead of a baby changing table. You never use that again, but you can definitely use a dresser or desk later! (cheaper too!) All you have to do is buy a changing pad and set it on top and you are good to go. Lots of people are going this way no a days I have noticed.

As for the theme, or decorating I want to do, I think I am going to base it all around a crib set I found at Babies R Us. Its called Bunny Meadow and is SO STINKING CUTE! I just love it. Its in greens and browns and tans and its very outdoorsey without being wildernessy, if that makes sense. We both love being outdoors and summer, etc, so I think it will be great. Its also pretty gender friendly. It leans towards boy, but a few pink accents here and there would work fine.

Here it is!

I love the wall color as well, so I emailed asking the manufacture if they knew the name of it, of course not. -_- So I guess we will have to do our best ourselves! Here is an up close picture of the set: Bunny Meadow

Theres just ONE small problem...hehehe....the set is $180.00. Yeah. CHOKE! I would have to pick an expensive one. I swear. I'm hoping some one will take mercy and go in together on it for my shower, lol.

Anyway, I also have found a crib I am in LOVE with. This item also has a problem though. No, its not expensive, quite cheap actually! Its just out of stock. -_- I emailed wal mart asking if they knew when they would get it back in and of course they sent me some generic email that helped non at all. Here it is though! Cape Cod Crib - Cherry

I've so got my heart set on it, so hopefully they will get it back in soon...PUHLEASE???

Well thats about all for now. Until later!

ULTRASOUND!!

Can you believe it?!

I sure as heck can't! Okay, I'll back up now!

Yesterday Lee and I went for our first appointment with my actual doctor. I was so nervous that day for some reason! I guess because it could all come crashing down around me. I could get in there and have bad results fom my blood work, and them tell me that the baby was gone/had never been there...etc. I worry too much I know!!

Anyway, we got there for my appointment at 3:30, fast forward to 5:00 and we finally get in there, lol. The husband was having kittens. I was like darlin, this is the way doctors office visits go, you might as well get used to it! (turns out she had an emergency, she apologized very nicely)

Anyway we got in there and I saw them. THEM, the little vest and lap paper. UGH, I knew it was going to be, "all right, go ahead and get all your clothes off and she will be in here shortly!" And I was right! BOO! Oh well, I had a feeling that might happen so I had shaved and all that mess the night before, haha. It was a little awkward having Lee there while I got undressed and situated with the little that they give you to wear. He thought it was pretty amusing, lol, but I could tell he was a little uncomfortable too.

So we sat another 10-15 minutes and she finally came in. She's so nice. She sat down and asked if we had any questions, and then asked me a few things like if anyone smoked around me, and told me what not to eat, etc. She told me all my blood work came back great (thank God!) and my pap test that had been taken that summer was good. Yeah! She said somewhere in there she thought it was too early to hear the heartbeat yet, and I just went DANG IT inside. I was so looking forward to that.

Anyway, then she had me lay back and checked my breasts over and then pushed on my stomach and such, checked my back for any strange looking moles, etc. Then the FUN part. She had me put my knees up and stuck what FELT like a 2 foot pole up in me. UGH! You should have seen the looks that went across my face, lol! I'm still not sure what she was feeling for or doing, I couldn't hear her well laying on my back. Then she said everything felt/looked good.

Then! She said, "well, lets just see if we can take a peek in there, that won't hurt your feelings will it?" WHAT?! Heck no! I was like in a daze! She told the nurse to wheel the machine in there and they shut the lights off and I couldn't believe it! She smeared the ultrasound gel on my stomach and started moving the wand around (and pushing really hard on my stomach!) trying to get a good picture.

At this point the monitor was turned away from me and I couldn't see so I was anxiously watching her facial expressions. When she started frowning I thought, OH NO! But then it turns out it was because she wouldn't be able to get us a good picture because of the position the baby was in. BUMMER. Anyway after that she turned the machine towards me and then had Lee come over to look over my shoulder. There it was! OUR BABY. Our little blob. LOL! It was really hard to distinguish anything about it. But then it started moving all over the place and Lee and I were like OH! It was so so neat. The doctor said she saw a heartbeat and it was moving, so all looked well! Way too soon she shut the machine off and that was it! I wish I could have watched it for another hour!

So she left and I got myself wiped off and clothed again and we were out of there! I made an appointment for Feb 11th. So long from now! Ugh. By then I should be feeling it move and have a little baby belly finally.

In other news, still feeling pretty good! I think the nausea time is past and I should be good to go. I'm just starting to freak a little about the money. I still have a $240 bill hanging over my head that needs to be paid and then we have to have $311 at our next appointment and for another 3 months after that. And its like we are already living paycheck to paycheck! WHERE IS IT GOING TO COME FROM?

We have about $250 saved up now, so this Feb payment will be okay. And we are getting our income tax refund probably in march/april sometime. So we should have only one month we really have to scrape up for. God is more then able to provide for us, we just have to get our silly minds wrapped around that!

I've been looking at my stomach a lot today, my pants I've been wearing all week are feeling different today. I can't keep them up over my belly. I keep looking at it and thinking it looks like I might have 'popped'. I dunno...its still a little early. I bet I'm just bloated, lol. But that usually doesn't set in until later at night...hm. I guess we will see!

I bought a baby journal! Its to document what goes on during my pregnancy. Its called The Belly Book. Its super cute. Here it is: The Belly Book. Its been a lot of fun already to fill out. And it will be so fun for me, and my child, to look at later!

Well thats about all for now! I'm pretty excited about tonight. My bros wife invited us over for hamburgers and then we are goin bowling, yay!

Ta ta!

First Appointment

Well it finally happened! And yet nothing really happened, lol. A bit anti climatic!

 

Anywho, I met Lee this morning in the parking lot, and we headed on in. I was so happy to have him there with me! Signed in, then went and paid, (was strange writing such a big check!) and then on into the exam room. Well Lee got to go in there, I had to go pee in a cup first. Which I did quite well! Last time wasn’t so good, haha. I have a feeling I’m going to have this down to a science before too long since you have to do it every appointment.

 

After that I was weighed (121lbs with shoes on, yay! I was afraid I’d gained already) then back into the room. The nurse followed me in and we went over the medical conditions in my family, whether I smoked/drank, etc. Then she had some things I had to sign, a few papers and a pregnancy book to give me, and that was it! I asked if I could hear the heartbeat and she said they can’t hear it until 12 weeks. What?! Everything I’ve read has said even 6 weeks you may be able to hear it. I guess every Dr is different…

 

The good news is she said I could come in as early as next week to see the actual doctor, so that should be when we get to hear it, I hope! I’m also really happy with the nurse. She was there when I went in last time and is really nice and sweet.

 

So we went out of there and on down to the lab room where a scary looking grey chair was. I had to sit there and the lady came and put a rubber thing on my upper arm to take my blood. I was a little nervous about this. I don’t think anyone likes needles! Lee was standing against the wall laughing at the expressions I was making, lol. She told me to make a tight fist and then straighten my arm out and then said “are you ready?” and I said “No!” Lol, but it wasn’t bad at all! She poked me and it was nothing major! She took like 5 vials of blood, two big ones, and about 3 smaller. Man! I’m hoping they will tell me I have positive something blood type and not negative. Negative causes a bit of problems for baby, nothing serious but you and baby have to get a shot after delivery or something…not real sure. And I hope they don’t find anything wrong with it!

 

So after that she stuck a cotton ball on it and we were done. Back out to the desk to make my appointment and and give my paperwork and we were out of there. Thankfully they had a opening next Thurs at 3:30, I was afraid Id have to wait 2 weeks. So I’ll be 11 weeks and 5 days by then. And I better hear that heartbeat!!! ;)

 

I was so hoping to lay to rest that niggling feeling I’ve had that there isn’t really a baby in there, or something is wrong, etc today. Ugh!! Disappointing. Another week to wait. Sigh.

 

So the nurse told us we should go and pre register for my delivery stay as soon as possible. Lee and I decided to do it today since we had a bit of time. That was pretty easy, just had to fill out a page of paperwork and sign a few things. While we were in there a new dad walked into the waiting area to tell his family that was out there their baby was born and how much he weighed etc, hehe. It was neat.

 

The lady there told me to go see a financial advisor asap. She tried to get a hold of two of them but no one was answering. Probably stayed home cause of the snow! (Its so pretty, and luckily not sticking!) She told us about a thing called a ‘mini-stay’ which is supposed to be VERY reasonably priced, she said she didn’t know how they do it its so cheap. She said we could go to the desk where they are and try to get one of them that way. We went down there and the lady said it would be a little bit if we wanted to wait. I told her we would be back next Thurs and could we make an appointment? She said yes and gave me her number. So gotta do that!

 

After that we headed back to the entrance and said our good byes and off to work for both of us! Although I got a call from my sis in law and we went out to lunch first. That was fun.

 

So now I’m sitting at work eating grapes, yum, and watching the snow fall. Pretty dead here. I’ll be here till 6 tonight, I’m hoping the freezing ice/slick stuff they are forecasting doesn’t start until I get home!   

 

Until later!

The Big Day

So for WEEKS now I’ve been waiting to go to my first prenatal appointment. I was in agony for about a week and then decided to try and totally forget about it so I wouldn’t be totally frustrated with how long it was taking to get here!

But finally I am only about a day away! Yeah! I’m excited, but also a little scared. What if we get in there and they find out I’m not even pregnant, or something is wrong, or who knows what else! Lee says I am the most negative person he knows, lol. I just hate the unknown. I like to know everything about everything! And I haven’t been in to the doctor since I was 6 weeks, I’m 10 now. Who knows what could have happened between then and now?!

My friend had a miscarriage in October. She was 10 weeks as well. She went in to her appointment and they couldn’t find the heartbeat. :(

Okay, I need to stop! And trust God that everything is fine, and if it isn’t its all in His hands anyway and He has a perfect plan for us.

I am really happy that Lee is probably going to be coming with me. I don’t want him to miss hearing the heartbeat for the first time. Which I’m HOPING they will let us hear. I know for sure they are going to be taking blood, etc, and then we have to fill out a family hisory report. I called yesterday to confirm my time and asked if it was okay if he came back with me and the lady said oh yeah! That will be good because he will need to help you fill out the history. So ha! You are supposed to come Lee Lee! He wasn’t too thrilled, lol. Its at 9:30 so he can leave work at 9 and then he should be back at least by 11.

It is supposed to snow/ice on Thursday. Thats just PERFECT! –_-‘ I don’t care though! If they are open I am going! Although I can’t say I’m thrilled about driving my camaro about in that. There are a lot of long, big hills out towards the hospital.

Anywho, not much change from last post. Still nauseated off and on throughout the day, having a hard time eating anything, tired early in the night etc. Bought time to buy a new bra, lol, that is a nice perk! But I feel bad for Lee since I really haven’t felt like that very much lately. But I know I’ll make up for it in the 2nd trimester, or so I heard, hehe ;).

I’m wearing my maternity pants a lot now, and my looser fitting jeans. I’m not showing yet (just bloated!!) but any kind of tightness on my waist is unbearable now. Its weird. So I’m glad I found these maternity pants before Christmas, cause they are sure coming in handy! Once I really start showing (which probably won’t be until February sometime) I am going to hit the Motherhood Maternity store in Huntsville. Better save my money! I have been meaning to check out the nicer consignment stores here in town. I bet they have some cute things at good prices.

I’m so excited for Valentines Day this year. By then I should have a cute little bump popped out, and its just going to be so special, knowing we have a baby on the way. I hope we have the money to go out to eat at least.

Well I guess thats enough for now. I’ll blog about my appointment Thursday!

Is It Time For Bed Yet?

That is one of my favorite phrases as of late. SO SLEEPY! All Christmas day I was pretty much out of it. I was good that morning after I woke up but then it went downhill all day. We went to my parents first off and after the present opening I just sat on the couch and dozed while they played wii. Then we went home to his parents and I sat on THEIR couch and slept/dozed, lol. Of course getting up to pee and eat in between. Although I didn't feel like eating much at all. And that was pretty much Christmas! The next day was not near as bad, I was much more awake! Sunday was good though at about 2 I took a nice nap, lol.

Today the sleepiness is settling in again...I think I'm going to ask dad if I can get off an hour early so I can do my grocery shopping and get home!

I'm hungry AGAIN, couldn't eat much at lunch. I might get into my apple I brought...its SO HARD to find something I actually want to eat. That doesn't make the nausea come up in my throat. Which I am nauseated all day off and on anyway. But at least I still haven't thrown up! Yeah baby!

I hit the 9 week mark this week. Or so I am assuming. Still haven't been in to the doctors again. Only a little over a week tho! Finally! Its not this Thurs but the next. I hope they give me good news. We still have not sold that darn mustang of Lee's. But I know my dad will loan us the 1k if we need it. Then we have four months of $311 to pay. Yeah. Oh and get this. I got a bill in the mail the other day for $240 from my OBGYN appt in AUGUST! Yeah, thanks for the heads up guys. I had NO idea I was going to be billed additionally from what I paid in the office. Thanks a LOT. I was hot when I called them. I told them they had better not be doing that when I come in for my pregnancy. So we have to get that money up now. -_-' Its not like we don't already have enough to worry about. Oh well, its in Gods hands! They are more then capable.

So I got a food processor for Christmas! And the pioneer womans cookbook I've been wanting. Its awesome. I need to pick something to make out of it before I head to the store.

Well not a whole lot else going on. Till later!

Shes Gonna blow!

Well, seeing as I have skipped the whole ‘throwing up’ symptom of most pregnancies so far (knock on wood) I was hoping I also skipped the rolling emotions (screaming one minute and crying like a baby the next) but apparently I’m not that lucky!

 

Last night was a complete come apart. It was terrible. It really started the night before. But that was nowhere near as bad as last  night. We went to wal mart to get some groceries. I saw a SIX DOLLAR shirt that I really liked so I got it. Lee is going on and on about how we don’t have the money ect, and I’m like SHUT UPP, well I didn’t say that. I knew we had enough for a blasted shirt, and I have very few long sleeve shirts!

 

So then to get to the groceries you have to go by the baby stuff. I NEVER go into the baby area, I have never had a need to before now. So I wanted to look at the baby stuff! Well immediately Lee starts pulling on me going “the baby isnt born yet, you dont know what it is etc” I’m like ARGH! And I look at him and go “well when can I start looking at stuff?? When I’m 9 months pregnant and two days from my due date??” and he just looks at me and walks off. Great.

So from then on I am totally upset and annoyed with him. And I wanted this to be special! To look at stuff together! RUINED!!

 

So we get our groceries and drive home. And he’s saying hes sorry, etc. and I’m like you just aren’t getting what is important to me, you don’t care that I want to look at things like maternity clothes and baby stuff. And he keeps going on about how he knows me and I’m going to start buying stuff and we already don’t know where we’re going to get the money for the doctor. UH NO. I never said a WORD about buying ANYTHING! –_- ‘

 

Sigh. So we get home and I go to the room and slam the door and get in my pajamas and get in bed. I’m SO TIRED and hungry and just want it all to go AWAY. Lee puts the groceries up and comes in there saying he’s sorry again and wants to know whats wrong, and I’m like we just went over this. And I-CAN-NOT-STOP-CRYING. It got pretty ridiculous. Any time he looked at me or said anything it started all over again. SO ANNOYING! So finally he tucked me into bed and told me to go to sleep. So I laid there for a few minutes and decided I was too hungry to sleep and I didn’t want to be in there alone anyway. So I got up and ate like 5 or 6 of those chewy chips ahoys lol. Then off to bed.

 

So yeah, I’m like a ticking time bomb apparently. At any moment I could have a serious issue and not be able to stop crying! Fun fun. Poor Lee.

 

SO other then that I’ve been doing good. I’m getting increasingly tired and hungry though. I usually feel like taking at least one nap a day. I eat a LOT too. Well, not a lot, but frequently. I have to eat something at least every 2 hours or I get that hungry feeling in my stomach and feel ick. I’ve started bringing little snacks to work with me. Otherwise I’d starve! LOL. I’ve started to drink just water, I figure I don’t NEED to, but it definitely will be a benefit I’d say. Sometimes I have apple juice.

 

I’ve been having period like cramps for a few weeks now. At first of course I thought I was about to start, but now I know it is part of early pregnancy. They have subsided this week though. I also am a little light headed at times, and of course pee a lot, lol. In the mornings my stomach is a little upset, but not nauseous thankfully. If I don’t start throwing up in the next few weeks I think I’m home free.

 

So I called my OBGYN Monday and yesterday they called me back to tell me my first appointment isn't until JANUARY 7TH!! I’ll be 10 weeks! And thats a MONTH AWAY! Most people at least get in at 8 weeks! BOO. They are so overcrowded there. So I only see the nurses at that appointment, to go over family history and do some lab work. Then at 12 weeks I see the actual doctor and maybe have a ultrasound or hear the heart beat! I’m so excited about that.

But not that I won’t be getting in until after new years! Grr.

 

We have to come up with about $1,200 at our first appointment and then we have a balance of about another $1200 or so more to pay over four months. We are just trusting God that He is going to get us what we need. I know He will.

 

We are trying to sell Lees ‘65 mustang that he was going to restore. We bought it for $1,000 a few years ago so hopefully it will sell for that or more. Its on ebay and craigslist. We’ve had a few bites on craigslist, but no follow through yet. Three bids on ebay but they haven’t reached the reserve of 1,000 yet. It goes till Monday.

 

I’ve got my bow and accessories I could sell, Lee’s got a nice revolver…so we will see. I’m just glad we have stuff we can sell that has value.

 

YAWN, I could use a nap right NOW. So sleepy. I have started exercising, lol. I walk around in a big circle in the store in the morning for 30 minutes. Hey, it works! I just read my bible first and then grab another book and just walk around reading. I’ve done it three days in a row so far. I think after a week or so I might bring my 8lb weight and start lifting it as I walk. Hey, I have to be here anyway I might as well do something useful! Lee thinks I’m crazy. What does he know!

 

Well guess thats about all for now, until later!

You Know That ‘Something’?

That I wrote about yesterday? That thing I was sort of kind of freaking out about and dedicated a whole paragraph to??

 

Well, um, this is what it was about:

 

 

Yeah, IM PREGNANT!!! *faint*

 

*deep breath* Okay, I’m back. I still am in total unbelieving shock. But it doesn’t get too much more real at this point. I took myself off to the OBGYN first thing this morning to take a test there and guess what? The nurse came in smiling and said CONGRATULATIONS! *faint*

 

Okay, back again. Phew, I am not breathing right! All last night I was in turmoil.

 

Lets back up. So the month of October was my last period. In November I was supposed to start on the 22 or 23. I didn’t really think about that at the time because I don’t keep track of it that well. But after I got to Wednesday of this week and still there was not hide nor hair of it, I started thinking hmmm…actually it was Tuesday night that I suddenly said to Lee after we got in bed that I should have had it already. He was like “what are you trying to say?” and I said “I’m trying not to say ANYTHING” lol!

 

So Wednesday I went to walgreens before work and bought a pack of two pregnancy tests. Side note: Those freakin things are EXPENSIVE! A pack of 2 of the name brand are TWENTY DOLLARS. I got these for $10 because they were off brand.

 

Anywho, I didn’t take the test till late that night. I had to work and then I had choir practice. So I went in the bedroom and got in my pjs then grabbed a plastic cup out of the kitchen, lol, and snuck it by Lee who was watching tv. I did my thing and stuck the test in there, put the cap back on and I went away! I didn’t want to watch it. So 5 minutes later I came back and I was like, okay, here we go. I was afraid to look at it! I was sure it was going to be negative. And I was kind of wanting the other…and kind of not!

 

Well I finally worked up the nerve to look and then I had to do a double and triple take because it was POSITIVE!! I grabbed it and took off down the hall going "uh, LEE” he looked up from eating dinner and said “what??” in a voice like, uh oh, lol!

 

So after I showed him at first he said “are you kidding me?” And I was like UH NO I can’t fake that! Then he hugged me and I was about crying and we were like OH MAN! And then I kept going I can’t be pregnant, I can’t be pregnant! Lee was so sweet just holding me and saying nice things. Then I was like I need to talk to your mom!

 

So we called over there, it was like 10:30, thankfully they were still awake, and we drove over and I got her to talk to me in private. She was like is something wrong? I think I scared her! So after we got in the room I showed her the positive test and she said “are you pregnant??” and I was like I think so, I don’t know! And then I just LOST IT! I was crying and laughing and mostly just freaking out. Thinking of all the bad things that cold happen, how we have no insurance, etc. Thinking this can’t be happening!

 

So anyway she hugged me and sat down on the bed with me and we talked for a long time and she got me calmed down. Then Lee came in and we talked some more and it was just fun. We went back in the living room after about an hour and Lees dad was just pleased as punch you could tell! He has been wanting a grandchild for a while! We chatted a bit more and then went home.

 

It took me FOREVER to fall asleep! I bet I didn’t sleep till 1:00. Then I woke up at 2 to go to the bathroom and then couldn’t go back to sleep again until nearly 4! Then I was up with Lee at 6:30. So I’m going to be tired! I just couldn’t shut my mind off! I had to get Lee to distract me and tell me about work that day etc Then I started counting sheep/horses then just counting my breaths, ugh. It was torture! I just kept wishing it was tomorrow and  I knew if I was pregnant or not!

 

Well tomorrow it is and I am apparently!! My stomach has been ucky all morning. Not throwing up but you know…not fun! I think its just a combination of my taco bell dinner, lol, and nerves. I have got to calm down! I called a good friend of mine from college on the way to work and we both had a huge freak out on the phone together. She is pregnant as well! Due in February. She was so excited. Its going to be nice to have her to talk to about things since she has been through it recently and is my age and my friend. Unlike the moms, etc.

 

I called Lees mom on the way home first. She knew I was going in that morning. She was super excited too and kept telling me how I was going to be great and wonderful and everything would be great. She is going to be a lifesaver. Shes so sweet, but also will tell you like it is. She is def going to be in the delivery room with me! I will need her to whip the drs and nurses around and get me what I need/want! She gets the job done now!

 

Did I just say delivery room?? *double faint*

 

So thats all the drama for now! I will keep this updated! I want to record everything that goes on so I don’t forget it.

 

Tata!